I’m really sorry I haven’t been online in a while. But I need help. I’m on higher meds. I’m seeing 2 doctors. I’m trying to be social. I’m trying to go to class. But I’m still just drowning in this. And I just tried to hurt myself for the first time. Thankfully it’s not serious (some bad scratches but nothing that will cause me any physical problems) but I’m scared. I’m really scared. I’ve been suicidal for most of the last 2-3 weeks. I still haven’t told any of my friends, or my parents. My mom knows I’m depressed but her brother committed suicide before I was born and I’m afraid to tell her how bad it is because I don’t want to cause her any more pain. I don’t know if I’m going to be able to finish the semester at this point. I’m just trying to hold on.
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